Do you ever feel so sinful sometimes that you become just downright ashamed of yourself?
"Those who look to Him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame." ~ Psalm 34:5
That's been me this week. Nay, this month. I've been so busy and distracted with school and with self, that I haven't been spending time with the Lord like I ought to. And even the way I phrase that feels false -- "like I ought to." As if loving God is an obligation, just another thing to check off my endless to-do list. Which sometimes, honestly, it is.
This morning I decided it was time to read the passage on the prodigal son. So often I have self-righteously read through this parable looking down on the prodigal son, but now I feel like I can relate to him better than ever. I've wandered off, done my own thing, but it only makes me feel more empty inside. And a lot of the time I think the Lord looks down on me for it. But then I read this verse:
"So he got up and went to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him." ~ Luke 15:20
That's the kind of love that I will bleed myself dry for. That's the kind of love that the Father continues to wrap me in, despite my filth. He ran.
I don't know, I have homework to do and projects to present and all these things, but I felt like it was important for me to share that with whomever reads these ramblings.
"'For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate." ~ Luke 15:24
Dead? Alive.
Lost? Found.
Aww...and isn't that the truth...running on my own strength leaves me dry pretty quick! But God fills me up even quicker when I turn back to Him. His -love- gosh. There's scarcely any words to describe it- but the more I see of the world and how most people perceive love- and how they "love" each other,(meaning, that they don't...) I realize just how amazing and pure God's love is - and that all the love I've ever really known HAS come from Him...in some form or another. Everyone who has truly loved me, did it because God loved them and they wanted to share it. and that all the love I've ever been able to show others has come from an outpouring of His love to ME.
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It makes me think of this verse too :
"It's His kindness that leads us to repentance..." :)
Keep on blogging! :D I find your posts so encouraging!
You are so kind and encouraging! He is showing me the greatness of His love, too. Love the way you phrased this comment...all of it resonates with me. You da bomb!
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